Time goes too quickly when you are off for one week from work. I don’t know where the time has disappeared. Well I do. Obviously, by having late nights watching too many films, one after the other, and sleeping in, my hearts content. My sister called me ‘Princess and the dvd’ today. I don’t mind, I found it quite amusing. Hey it is good to catch up on sleep. When I’m back at work, I don’t sleep very well. five or six hours of sleep, when I am personally trying to aim for eight hours of sleep. Guess, it doesn’t help, when you’re engrossed with a book and you’re like, ‘just one more page and then I’ll sleep’ or ‘just till the end of this chapter’ and it turns into the whole book.
I had a thought the other day about time. We are stuck in time. Time doesn’t move fast. It is us, humans who are moving fast. Time is still. Like poetry.
So, yes I am now called ‘Princess and the DVD’ – yes – I love films. What films did I watch last night? A documentary about real life serial killers. Frightening stuff and it was based on the the fictional character Hannibal Lecter, as all the killers are cannibals. Nice 😦 Then there was the hot, action hero Jean Claude Van Damme’s movie “Double Impact”, I remember watching this action film when I was a kid. It was after all a 1990’s film. Then ending the night with comedy romance, “Notting Hill” starring Julia Roberts and Hugh Grant – mister floppy hair! I do love watching films.
If someone asked you ‘Do you have the time?” What would you say? I would uncover my sleeve on my left wrist and view my watch and tell the stranger the time. I guess that is automatic. That is not what I am trying to say. Time. Who has the time for anything? Time is wasting away. As I blog. As you read. As I write. Time is running out. Eek! I hear you cry. Yes. I nod.
The last few weeks have been really hectic for me. I glance at my diary and calender and every day something is happening. Events. So busy. I try to monitor my time and work around it. It is hard. I am trying to learn my theory for my driving lessons, so I can book my driving test and be on my way to support my career in retail. As well as that, I am trying to have the time, for my husband, so he does not feel neglected. I am constantly working around the clock, working here, working there, babysitting, writing my column, cooking, domestic cleaning. You know the drill. So hectic. Then there are family events, birthday do’s, party invites, to reply to. Everyone expects you to be there. Friends trying to meet up and they don’t understand why you are so busy.
That is part of life.
Some days after an incredible long shift at work, where I have started at 6am one morning and finished work the night before at 10pm, I go home to bed and sleep it off. And before you know it, the whole day has gone.
What does time mean to you?
Time means different things to people.
To me, time means money. It has taken me a long time to realise this. In my spare time, I am a treasurer in a community group in my home town. I am one of the founders of the group. I taught myself from scratch how to do book keeping. I have learnt many skills and I feel very passionate about it, But unfortunately now, my life is getting quite hectic. With my full time job in retail, my writing in my column, family commitments, running my home, I don’t have any personal time to myself. I love all the members in my group, we are such a bubbly bunch, and I have become good friends with them. Being the youngest one in a group of women who are grannies and nannies, then there is me. My only set of friends who are much older than me. One of the ladies once said, “I couldn’t do this job, if I was working full time.” I remember turning around and saying “Well, I work full time and am doing this in my spare time.” She had nothing to say. This made me think. What Am I Doing Here? Sadly, I will be stepping down from my position this year. I will miss doing the end of year accounts, which I have been doing for the last three years. I will miss updating the face book page that I set up for the group and doing all the public relation side. I will miss taking part in all the planning and organising in the events that we do. It was fun when it lasted. Sad, that I don’t get paid for it. It does take a lot of time to do this. I always look back at the very first meeting, when they asked who would like to be the treasurer. Everyone, looked away. I put myself forward, bravely. Pushing my boundaries, confronting me fear. That is what life is. Confronting my fear and being brave. You wouldn’t have courage, if you were not scared, a friend told me.
Hello Bloggers I am back! Due to terrible internet connection in my home town, have been unable to write, blog my emotions and the tough battles I have faced during this long block of time.